Segar?

Mata masih segar. Cuba nak lelap. Dah berminggu2 dalam keadaan macam ni. Macam2 dalam kepala. Pasal kerja, life, arah tuju hidup. Jadi, aku amek keputusan to write something in my so called blog.

What u need to do to fix ur life? To undo all the mistakes, to not repeat the same mistakes. My heart wants to sing, but the heartache seems to block the happiness. Setiap manusia x boleh lari dr masalah, apatah lagi kesilapan. Is it enough to say "I am sorry" everytime u make mistakes? How many "I forgive you" is actually enough for a person not to repeat the mistakes. My heart had been broken a few weeks ago. Actually, it had been broken for so many times. I believe in chances. For that, I had made myself vulnerable. I'd opened chances for people whom I trust with my life, to keep on hurting me. I don't believe in revenge or vengeance. So, what did I do to relieve the pain? I cried my heart out.

Yes, I cried like there will be no tomorrow. And that's how I love someone. I love a person as if there will be no tomorrow. A friend told me, "U should write a novel. Ur life is full of tragic incidents that it need to be written, documented". I just smile. A very sour smile. Too many tragic incidents, too many heartbreak, too many tears. Maybe I should write a novel or at least short stories. It may not be as good as the world best sellers, but at least something.

Maybe I should.